Checking on Blog Analytics on a Tuesday
Upon publishing the first long post since annual subscription plan, there's a relatively huge influx of reads from web-strangers across the globe. I'm not sure if it meant anything more than an ago booster, nor do I sure if I hate it. It's a refreshing dopamine hit compared to what techlord platforms did to us with their schemes though.
Part of me secretly (not so secret anymore) hope strangers don't upvote my posts. Before this place went discoverable I already have a reader, as I am theirs, who sees me not in mere terms of post to post or face to face, but spirit to spirit. It's the closest feeling to "soul penpals" I've got to experience. Or「以文會友」as we say in Traditional Chinese, "befriended through written words". They'd check in here before I announce anything on other platforms, quietly upvote a post before leaving, so I'd knew they already read and felt my new craft. Me thinks this type of resonation is a once-in-a-lifetime thing and almost impossible to replicate unless the actors' characters stay true to who their souls were. Honesty to self is so scarce in this World today. And if these individuals ever met and had their existence align through mutual heart-felt recognition and trust? That makes this kind of relationships rarer than the numbers of existing capitol-wise-billionaires.
It feels liberating. I don't owe explanations, nor scheduled content delivery, nor proof of my success or lack thereof to anyone here. I don't owe these machines, or these digital landlords, or these pseudo-friends who seek out to me as their socio-cultural-capitol leverage, or these hard-to-appease-audience-who-forgets-me-as-soon-as-I-stopped-showing-up an approval. I only need to trust myself and be. Isn't this what creation supposed to be?
Then again I'm not here to merely make friends or to be/felt seen. I'm here to build a voice and make sure it is worth spoken out (and perhaps profit from the damn thing), right? We'll see where this takes us. I hope I build something here before my spiritual demise and before the subscription ends.
Edit: I'm a silly fucktard. I can actually edit post attributes myself just above the content column. That's so neat.