A tribute to Vongoval
Hi Val, thank you.
Have been following your YT since this August. Just watched the newest essay.
Slowly crawling out of the FOMO limbo, reclaiming confidence, reforging own voice, rebuilding inner-verse. Getting better at sitting still in my own discomfort, better at calming down my own pulse before waking up. (Sometimes I hear my own heartbeat in bed. It keeps amplifying, couldn't really sleep.)
Connected with a penpal last weekend, he has such a briliant mind, is so wonderfully weird, and doesn't hold back punches in his long essays and commentaries. He's slightly delusional but more alive than anyone I've encountered; I felt seen; something sparked within me. I feel the drive to be wild again. I feel angry and untamed, and the want to shout "no, fuck you" to the world with my works. I jogged for more than 30 minutes without phone tracking laps for me the first time in, like, 5 years...? Picked up my pen and draw like I mean it. My coordination improved, my footsteps are powered with intentions and deliberateness, and swifter than ever.
Been writing this blog for my own sanity, realized that I'm just recycling your volcabulary and summing up your videos into my long list of uninsightful interpretations, knowing that I have just restarted.
Thank thank thank you, cannot thank you enough. ;) 謝謝你。
Sincerely
Silky